I KNOW I’ve written so much about my last few months of university lately, and I KNOW that university has been such a big topic on this blog for the past three years… but there’s no real way of avoiding this topic when it’s been such a huge part of my life.
When you’re a student, the concept of time isn’t really a thing; apart from deadlines, or getting ready for a night out, or waiting until the end of the night so you can finally order that Domino’s you’ve been craving… but real time doesn’t really exist. As a fresher, the idea of being a third year is so far away in the future that it’s hard to visualise what it will be like when the time comes for you.
When you’re in first year, you just have to focus on passing your modules, making friends, not causing fights with your flatmates, trying to make sure you don’t drink too much Vodka and Cranberry juice at Pre Drinks, then being able to get into the club, only to throw up as soon as you reach the bar… (true story… sorry mum if you’re reading this.)
As a student, life is confusing, and complicated, and unbelievably exciting that you never want it to end, and then all of a sudden… you’ve given in your dissertation, and you’re working on your final assignments for university ever. It’s sad, because you know you don’t know what to do with yourself afterwards, and “afterwards” is only a few short months away.
Of course it’s easy to make short term plans, but what about in five years time? I’m debating becoming a teacher because out of all the things I want to do, it feels like the easiest way of getting a job at the end of it. But I still don’t know if it’s what I want to do, and if it’s an excuse for me to still be a student for a short time longer.
I’ve met the best people, and I’ve made lifelong friendships. As cheesy as it sounds, it’s 100% true, and even in my final year, I’m still realising who my real friends are. I know the difference between the ones I want to stick around, vs the ones who will stick around. And I think once you reach that point, you know who will always have your back.
I don’t know where this last three years have gone. I don’t know what I’ll be doing this time next year. But I know for a fact that if I could do it all again, there’s nothing that I would change. (Well, maybe one or two things, but in the grand scheme of things that’s basically nothing.)