I feel like over the years of me blogging, it has definitely helped me to express my thoughts because when I try and explain them to someone face-to-face, the words can’t seem to come out because I don’t know how to say them to another human being. That sounds really weird, but bare with. When I write, I can actually take the time to think about what it is I’m trying to say.
I would say I’m an honest person, but sometimes when people ask what I’m thinking, I just say I don’t know because if it’s something about that person, I don’t want to hurt their feelings, so I just say nothing. I mean, saying nothing isn’t exactly lying, right? But then I feel guilty because the person may have a right to know.
That’s not exactly the point. The point is that writing a blog has been one of the best things for me in terms of trying to get to grips with my thoughts. When I write for an audience, it means I have to write my thoughts down in a way that everyone will be able to clearly understand it, and it means I can’t just sit there um-ing and ahh-ing. It means I can make sense of my thoughts too.
One of my friends says that I confuse them, and my answer is always “I confuse me too”. I didn’t study psychology, I don’t have an understanding of the mind, and I think my brain is just a confusing one. I hate trying to explain my thoughts when I haven’t even had time to think about them myself, so if you’re someone like me, then my advice is to just write. It doesn’t have to be on a blog if you don’t want the world to know your thoughts, but you can keep a diary, or just write something in a notebook, then tear out the piece of paper and throw it in the bin. I think writing is a really good way to make sense of complicated thoughts and ideas because it makes you think about what it is you want to say.
My friend also gets annoyed when I say “I don’t know”. Well, they don’t get annoyed, they just… question it.
“What are you thinking?”
“I don’t know…”
“You don’t know? What don’t you know?”
And then I feel like I have to answer them otherwise it would be rude. I don’t know why I think that, because sometimes I genuinely don’t have anything to say, and my thoughts are my thoughts, so I shouldn’t have to tell anyone what I’m thinking if I don’t want to.
The point of this post is just to say if you often find yourself getting headaches over trying to make sense of your mind, then I think writing is the best therapy for it. As much as I like talking to people face-to-face, it’s not always easy for some people to get their point across through speech. Sometimes if I have something important I need to tell someone, I’d rather do it over text or on Facebook, because of the same reasons I have a blog- for me, writing things out is a lot easier.
I don’t know if this post is useful to anyone, or if it makes any sense at all. I hope it does, seeing as the whole point of this post was about making sense of things through writing… what do you think?