I had my results on Thursday, and they were okay. They weren’t quite what I wanted and I haven’t gotten into my first choice of university, but I’ve passed. I should be happy but I’m not. I got a C in English, which I’m really unhappy about because that’s the subject I want to study, and I thought I could have at least achieved a B. The exam was so hard and to be honest I feel let down, because in the lessons leading up to our exams, we didn’t really do any full past papers, unlike last year. I didn’t really know how I should be structuring the essays. Maybe that was my fault for not asking, but at the time I thought it would be okay… I don’t know anymore.
I’m writing this on Friday 14th August, the day after results day. I’m still waiting to hear from my insurance choice university, after emailing them, and calling them twice. All they can tell me is to be patient, but I can’t be bloody patient, because this is my freaking future on the line! How the hell am I supposed to just sit here and wait for them for days to tell me whether I have a place or not? Surely they should have sorted this out already? I mean, they’ve had my results for about a week already!
Can you tell I’m getting really frustrated? I could be applying for clearing, but I can’t because my UCAS track page hasn’t been updated thanks to my insurance choice, so I’m currently in limbo. All I can do is call and email and wait. And it’s not fair. Why should I have to be waiting for so long? I mean, they could at least tell me that I’ve got a place or not, so I can try and find another university who’ll take me through clearing with the grades I’ve got. And I’m scared that if I keep waiting then I’m going to miss my chance.
I don’t really know what this post is. I’m probably going to start crying again in a minute if I keep writing because I want to get into university so much, and I feel absolutely helpless because there is nothing I can do. Well. Nothing I can do that is going to get me anywhere.